Ximending, Taipei
25thMay 2005
The Maiden
Medical undergraduate Stubborn, whimsical and perpetually in a state of daydream.

Loves and Desires
The rain, the sea and the cliffs
Shopping for pretty things
Be a good doctor

Pet-Peeves
Cats
Enclosed areas
Screaming people



Autobiography
Light is a many splendored thing
Archives
Guestbook

Dirty Laundry
2S03M
Alvin
Barry
Chingsian
ChiuWeng
Denyse
Genghis
Gerald
Gwenda
Huimin
Huishan
Jessica
Jianfu
JingJing
Joanna
Judo girls
KahSuan
KhengChuan
MC
Mr M
Natalie
Qiumei
Raymond
Sharon
Shawn
Tie Han
Wang
Wenshan
Wenyang
Xiaoke
Xinyi
Yucai


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Other Vindications
ART
Browntown
Buttermilk
Oikono
OneLittleTwit

Now playing
La Vie En Rose
By Louis Armstrong




  
Friday, July 11, 2003

I wish I aren't as possessive as I am, that I wouldn't cling on so tightly to ideals which are not meant to be. Yet the abstraction of absolute command over the way my life is run is far too enticing to be ignored. The burning desires to own and control, to love and be loved, to create and destroy is unerringly corrupting my soul as I struggle to keep them under control. Indeed, it is selfish and inconsiderate of me to demand as I do, the categorical love of my parents, the perfection of my surroundings and the accomplishments of my aspirations. Yet I want to own and manipulate everything around me. I want the sea to eat fire for me. I want the fishes to climb mountains. I want everything and anything. Give me the love, cede me the success. Make me happy.
I don't care for the price, the process, nor the time taken. I will wait, despite my renowned lack of patience. I wouldn't mind even if it takes a decade, a century, or a millennium. I am willing to commit myself, to pay any price. Take my life anytime, but make me the one and only. Bare me your heart, surrender your soul. Let me possess the world.

The maiden spoke at 12:06 AM

 
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